Thoughts on turning 36


bacon bandages – good for what ales ya!

Dude – birthdays are stupid. You move statistically closer to an almost certain cancer diagnosis… I never celebrate them.

This has, however, been a pivotal year so far. I quit a job that, while good, was really pointless. I’m still not sure if that was a good move or not. All I know is that I dreaded work everyday and finally said “fuck it” and quit. I left for a company that’s “doing everything right” except they sent me down to Renton (commuting sucks) to work in a fucking truck factory doing VB.NET winforms development and well, I quit that too… well, took a leave of absence, which ends on Monday (dreading it but hoping something positive happens). Generally, I think I’m pretty much done with the office world soon.

We’re selling our house and are going to try to buy something that will leave us close to debt free when we’re done. Hopefully we’ll also pick up a sailboat this summer and do some cruising around Vancouver Island. I’m hoping to do some freelance work, maybe pick up a restaurant job, maybe go to school, I don’t know. But do whatever I want… too many years doing what others have told me to.

All I know is I’m burned out on working for workings sake. I really like programming but not for years on end. Ideally I could program for 6-7 months a year and then do something completely different the rest of the time. I don’t see why that should be a problem.

I always find it amusing that we’re the richest country on earth and yet everyone works themselves to death. There’s got to be a better solution. And I’ll be looking for it this year. I’ll drop you a post card if I find it. :) Thanks for reading.

7 Comments

mattMarch 18th, 2006 at 10:27 am

the first step to rising out of samsara is to realize it’s all in your head. :)

good luck with your quest! please do share your findings.

mattMarch 18th, 2006 at 10:28 am

by the way, that’s an awesome picture

DadMarch 18th, 2006 at 12:22 pm

You seem to have reached my situation at a much younger age. I’m working two jobs, both programming and both from my home office, averaging ten hours a day, and loving it. The best part is the flexibility. You’ll be amazed at how much work will come your way once you don’t really need that much money, and you’ll be able to pick and choose to suit your life-style du jour.

Congratulations on making it this far.

CarrieMarch 19th, 2006 at 3:44 am

Hey Ben,

Way to go! Seems like this realization has been simmering for some time! 36 seems like a great time to do it. My friend had a 35th birthday party a week or so back, called it her halfway to 70 party. Seems like some great things are in the works. Much love! Carrie

sarahMarch 20th, 2006 at 3:26 pm

Nice picture!!! that was awesome. I think you should do whatever the hell you want to. Screw what the world thinks. Happy B-day by the way!
Sarah

carolyn WiseleyMarch 21st, 2006 at 4:40 pm

If I looked like your picture, I would stop celebrating birthdays too! As for yout latest endeavor, it’s nice work (or lack of) if you can get it. Between you and Kat, you should be able to swing it. Look at your Dad. He managed to do it. Just don’t do it at someone else’s exspense. Love you , Mom